What ruled prior to the Big Bang?

What existed prior to the Big Bang? Some swear nothing did. The very existence of nothing. It’s incomprehensible. I can’t imagine, not even through the pure chaos of my imagination can I comprehend ‘nothing’ Nothing is something something doesn’t exist from nothing, there can’t be nothing. After some thought, or should I say feelings, while strolling by the sea this evening: I came to the realisation that nothing couldn’t exist, but what if everything could exist? That would INCLUDE the true meaning of ‘nothing’.

Chaos. Chaos was the very beginning prior to the big bang. I call this particular state of chaos, The 1st dimension, Mother. I feel she has some feminine character because if she contains everything, and gives birth to something, its like a woman’s womb.

She contains everything, all possibilities from mathematical equations that describe what patterns make cars, to the chemicals required to give satisfaction in a brain, but all of it is random and disorganised. Impossible to grasp any sense.

This Mother is lifeless and still. There is no spark, everything has no meaning. Nothing makes any sense to her.

Then one day something happened. Something intervened. I believe the true creator of everything in our universe, including God, was the state of order I will call Father. It somehow collided with Mother.

As if it created time, but because there was no friction or drag (yet), the movement of everything inside her kept on moving and changing positions. This would feel like an eternity to a human, all possibilities were becoming together, a state of order for these mathematical equations begin to arise but nothing would do anything. The mathematical equations for a tank, for the feeling of fear inside a dog’s head, even the code for life itself..but nothing was doing anything. Until one day the random chaotic movement of code reached to the order of the meaning of love.

Then BOOM. A gigantic explosion occurred and satisfaction through a force of love, a meaning, was given to chaos. She expanded quickly with the exact code needed for the perfect physical existence through the drive of the meaning of love. Anything that was not satisfactory through the meaning of love, did not exist.